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Friday, November 16th, 2007
1:37 am
the obvious choice for me is Giuliani!!


Current Mood: contemplative
Thursday, November 15th, 2007
12:54 am
HSG and pregnancy
i had my appointment for the "official" test results with my OBGYN and he said the same thing as the doctor who did the HSG, everything is A ok. he was giddy when he came in the room to tell me the results. that morning while i was getting ready to go see him i had to run to the sink because i got nausea. i told him this and he got this big grin on his face and said that he wouldn't be surprised if i was already pregnant. he said it happens a lot after getting an HSG, of course i goggled it and this is what i found. i have spent the last couple of nights reading these and it seems to me that a lot of women have gotten pregnant after getting an HSG. this is very encouraging. he also said that my blood test shows that i have eggs in reserve, that i am NOT running out. i asked if this could be an anomaly and he said no. he said that he didn't see any reason we shouldn't be hopeful. i asked about the possibility of an ectopic pregnancy, he said that we would just have to be on top of it and not to worry to bad. just to test if i am late and come in right away. i am on day 25 and no signs of aunt flow, btw i average a 25 day cycle.

Current Mood: hopeful
Sunday, July 15th, 2007
3:59 am
sorry i haven't posted in a long time we been very busy getting ready for transformus and burning man the last few weeks. i have been checking the camping equipment and all my stuff i used to cook for everyone. i have been cooking up a storm for the last two weeks. freezing a lot of the food so we can put in five day coolers and warm it up as it thaws. i have made food for an Italian night, Spanish night, surf and turf night, Moroccan night, and the first night we will have hot dogs, hamburgers, wings, beanie and wienies, and such. we are going to buy a bunch of fruit and vegetables right before we go too.

our big dome shade structure is Moroccan themed, we have been adding to it little by little every year. we bought rugs, and blow up furniture the first year. my husband bought me a new fire pit that has a foot wide ledge around it, and we bought a fire ring so we could turn it into a propane fire pit. that way we can use the fire pit inside our shade structure. we got blue fire glass to put in it. i spent the last couple of weeks getting goodies in the mail. we ordered a brass tea pot, so we sever tea and coffee too. i ordered a bunch of saris to drape across the ceiling of our shade structure. we bought two more Moroccan lanterns as well. ohh and some huge pillows for people to sit next to the fire pit on. i need to add some fringe to them but i don't know where i will i will get the time to do it.

we ordered a lot of different fur to make funky outfits for burning man but i haven't even found the time to sew them. i have been doing all of this on top of taking care of my 98 year old grandmother, and helping my mom with my brother. taking care of the house and my husband, and running errands for all of us! i hope you all are doing well. i have missed keeping up wit you all. when i get the time i will try to catch up with you all. all in all we have been doing very well. more and more in love and planning for our move into the RV next year. we have some more renovating to do before we sell the house, but we expect to have it done and on the market by next year. one last christmas in this house then we will be moving on. i am not going to like leaving my new kitchen though. i love cooking in it. new stove, ovens, and stainless steal appliances. i love my new counter tops!! i told my husband that we were going to have our kitchen in the RV done up just like our new kitchen. as soon as we sell the house we are going to design our RV from top to bottom. we have decided to buy one of these.

Current Mood: busy
Monday, May 21st, 2007
5:48 pm
Sunday, May 20th, 2007
10:15 pm
all weekend long i have had the super sniffer going. we were at dinner when at a friends and i could smell the gardenia candles, my husband's cup of coffee, the Caesar salad, and a glass of champagne all at once and all not in front of me! my boobs are killing me, and my stomach has been finicky all weekend! if this is from the progesterones then i am going crazy! my husband has been checking with the babies to see what he can eat so that he can still kiss me afterwards.

Current Mood: nauseated
Friday, May 18th, 2007
2:26 am
this is pretty funny!
pregnancy

Current Mood: amused
Thursday, May 17th, 2007
6:06 pm
Saturday, April 28th, 2007
11:38 pm
I just find this so annoying, the mayor's campaign slogan. When he says “it’s our opala, our home, our community,” “our home” and “our community” both refer to the same “it” in the first part of the phrase. So, whatever “it” is, “it” is our opala, and the same “it” is our home, and the same “it” is our community. And that’s not a very nice thing to say! The frickin’ mayor’s old campaign slogan does the same thing. “Our city, our mayor” has an understood “it” subject. How can something be both our mayor and our city at the same time? Maybe that’s how they teach English at Iolani, but we HBA grads certainly know better.

I do not understand how everyone’s teeth didn’t ache every time these ads appeared on TV! How does “our city, our mayor” SOUND right to everyone? Arrrrrrrrrrr. So annoying.

Current Mood: annoyed
Friday, April 27th, 2007
11:33 am
This sucks! I was driving up Makala Blvd this afternoon and I noticed some people putting up signs by Queen Kaahumanu Highway. It said summer of 2008 Kona Commons, it looks like this mega shopping complex will indeed be materializing soon.

Current Mood: sad
Wednesday, April 4th, 2007
12:21 pm
Ching Ming Tradition in Hawaii
How do you honor your ancestors? If you were Chinese, you might celebrate Ching Ming.

Dating back 3,000 years, the practice of Ching Ming is still observed worldwide by Chinese families. Ching means "pure" or "clean"; ming means "brightness." The words together are applied to a Chinese tradition that helps explain why respect for elders is such an important part of the Chinese culture. Many Chinese believe that a person's good fortune or misfortune comes from his or her ancestors; that all departed ancestors still have the same physical needs they had when alive; and that the departed can assist their relatives on Earth.

Today, Ching Ming is celebrated every April 4 in Hawaii and involves the cleaning, repairing and replanting of ancestral gravesites. In Hawaii, the practice has a stronger presence than in other parts of the United States. Ceremonies involve preparing foods as a symbol of earthly possessions and laying them out on the grave. These foods may include fruit, rice, chicken, pork, cakes and tea. A meal may be eaten at the gravesite as a gesture of sharing with deceased relatives. Other customs include burning incense, offering prayers and burning symbolic paper. It is not necessarily a time of sadness, but one of reflection, remembrance and communion with past generations.

Current Mood: contemplative
Sunday, March 11th, 2007
11:06 pm
THIS MAKES ME ANGRY AS HELL x-posted
in one of my other groups i read this and though you all might be interested, but it will probable make you mad.


OK, I admit I like reading snarky gossip websites that poke fun at celebrities and pop culture, but I cannot believe what I read on gawker.com today. They posted in response to a first-person essay that ran in this week's Sunday New York Times about a women who got pregnant with triplets via IVF and kept all three.

Anyway, regardless of how you feel about that decision, it hardly warranted the nasty reaction on this site, gawker, where they paint those of us going through IVF--at least those of us in New York--as rich, spoiled women who are too racist to adopt needy children.

Maybe I'm just stirring the pot by posting this here, but I was upset and wanted to show you all what kind of prejudice is out there for people like us--I really didn't know about it before now.

Here's the link to the page on gawker: http://gawker.com/news/modern-love/...bies-242313.php

And, here's the original article from the Times: http://www.nytimes.com/2007/03/04/f...ove&oref=slogin
Sunday, February 18th, 2007
10:21 pm
MORE INFO ON THE DHEA SUCCESSES x-posted
as you all know i have been taking DHEA for the last four months in the hopes that it will help with my low response to stims in my ivf cycles. i have of late started to doubt that it might help me, so i started to once again check into anything i could find on DHEA on the web. once again if find these reports from that fertility clinic in NY on their successes. i am once again hopeful that this will help me next month with my next ivf cycle. although i am looking into other REs in other states. i have been read a lot of good things about CCRM, as well as CRMI which is supposed to be the best. i have also been checking into finding a Acupuncturist who specializes in Chinese Medicine and IVF Enhancement. our insurance covers both Acupuncture and massage, but there is no one in our city that is part of our net work so i am hoping to be able to talk someone into joining our net work so we won't have to pay out of network charges. other then that we have been doing fertility friend. these are the most recent reports on the DHEA trials...Read more...Collapse )
Sunday, January 7th, 2007
4:05 pm
CHILDREN OF MAN OR AS I CALL IT "SAVING BABY RYAN"
we went to see children of man it was ok. it kind of reminded me of 28 days and saving private Ryan. they didn't let get you hooked at the beginning. they didn't get you to feel for the main people. by the middle you were hooked but the ending left you wondering.
3:12 pm
I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT DPO IT IS. SO I DON'T KNOW WHEN AND IF I SHOULD TEST?
dec. 25 baby belly dance while parking by the water at when visiting in-laws. where there's a will there's a way!
dec. 29 baby belly dance done with hubby. took sugar free tussin for the post nasal drip and sore throat.
jan. 1 egg whites. no baby belly dance.
jan. 2 sticky. baby belly dance done with hubby. at lunch with hubby eating my favorite had some Nausea.
jan. 3 sticky. no baby belly dance. up late again.
jan. 4 nothing special.
jan. 5 sticky. just tired which is normal. BIG huge zit on cheek, which is NOT normal. up till 4am went to work at 11am. had bad day at work, and became depressed! negative opt. shooting pains in the bb.
jan. 6 stuffed up which is normal. opt only faint control line and no line on other side. what does that mean? sticky w/ spotting. still depressed. up till 6am. slept till 2:38pm took temp. it was 98.2f. gassy. Nausea at dinner time. still nauseous even after eat a little pasta with butter. very tired by 8:30pm, i need a nap! small headache. light headed. went to sleep at 5:19am.
dec. 7 slept till 3pm. i don't understand why i am soo tired! husband woke me up with a bowl of mac and cheese i really didn't want to eat it, but i choked some down. it sitting like lead in my stomach. spotting. bb sore.
Wednesday, December 27th, 2006
11:37 am
i just love christmas! everything is soo beautiful, all the lights and decorations. everyone trying to be nice to each other. i like to get gifts from people to see how well they know me or what they think of me. you can see from what they give you. my husband got a lot of coffee from his employees. i asked his if he drinks a lot of coffee he said about two cups a day, so i said why would they get you coffee he said that it must be known he has an appreciation for flavored coffee. i got a lot of kitchen stuff. i love to cook and i am good at it, but i like to get things that are not associated with working of any kind. things like movies, music, spa treatments, jewelry, shoes, bath stuff, ect don't you? well i got a lot of those kinds of gifts this year. my husbands is the best! we were in the mall shopping for other people, i saw these beautiful shoes and had to try them on! i wanted to get them for my self but i resisted. when my back was turned he asked the guy to put them aside and he went back for them when i wasn't there. he's the sweetest!
Wednesday, December 13th, 2006
3:56 pm
well i took the bull by the balls today! as i have said before i asked the nurse to ask my RE about getting immune testing and i was told that they didn't do testing. so i called my GP, then a called around and still found no one with answers. so i looked up the dr. beer the doctor that they were talking about in fertilethoughts and they asked ofr my records. when i called about a copy of my records i was told that i would need to sign a release form, so i went down to my RE with the intentions of getting my records. they asked who they were being sent to and i said that i wanted them just in "case". she asked why and i told her. you see after so long me and the staff at the RE's office are pretty close. she said she didn't know why they told me that they didn't do these test because they do. she was sure that the doc must have done them already on me. i asked her to check and they have only did clotting tests. she asked the doc if i could get the test and he said sure! so i have ten viles of blood to give in the morning! eeeewwwwwww! yikes!! oh well at least i will get answers. so far i haven't ovulated this month. i am day CD 20. i guess i will keep testing and see if and when i ovulate. oh and i had random light blood, but it was after rough sex so who knows what it was. i am getting real tired of all of this!! it is killing me to see women that are pregnant. it hasn't bother me up until now. it is really getting to me though now. i wish i could go on some anti depressants but the RE said NO! well i just want to go to sleep now, i want to sleep all the time! i should stop before i depress you all!
Thursday, November 30th, 2006
7:29 pm
IMMUNOLOGICAL ISSUES TOLEN FROM FERTILETHOUGHTS
i have endo and i haven't gotten a lot of answers. in my search for fertility and my answers of came a cross this and found it intesting enough to want to share with you all. if you have endo, have ever had a misscarriages, failed round after round of ivf, or POF you should read it.Read more...Collapse )
Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006
9:21 am
x posted
today is snot so good a day! still full of flem!! :( coughing and blowing my nose rules the day for the last five days!!! i took another pregnancy test last night because i am on CD 31 and it was negitive!!! i called the RE's office and the nurse said i should wait till DC 35 and see if my friend come on it own. ooooooh and i have lost 11lbs in the last month on my diet! i hastate to post this bacause i know i am going to get an i told you so from a well meaning friend that i would rather not listen to. until we know for sure what is going on i am not going to take an i told you so from anyone. i have endo and it could be causing this. as well as a tubal pregnancy can caause this, which i have a good chance because of all the scaring in my tubes. as well as the combo of dieting, taking the DHEA,and being sick. so lets wait and see what happens. i am posting this posterity sake.
Friday, November 17th, 2006
9:27 am
So. The problem with “it’s our opala, our home, our community,” is that “our home” and “our community” both refer to “it” in the first part of the phrase. So whatever “it” is, “it” is our opala, and the same “it” is our home, and the same “it” is our community. And that’s not a very nice thing to say! The frickin’ mayor’s campaign slogan does the same thing. “Our city, our mayor” has an understood “it” subject. How can something be both our mayor and our city at the same time? Maybe that’s how they teach English at Iolani, but we HBA grads certainly know better.

I do not understand how everyone’s teeth didn’t ache every time these ads appeared on TV! How does “our city, our mayor” SOUND right to everyone? Arrrrrrrrrrr. So annoying.

Current Mood: annoyed
Friday, October 20th, 2006
6:53 pm
i have just found out that my 5th ivf cycle has not taken. the first on i had four embryos two twos and two threes. i was on five vials of bravelle and one vile of menopur with antagon. the second i was put on five vials of bravelle and one vial of menopur with antagon had two really big follicles, but i ovulated through the meds. i think it was it could have been because the doctor started the antagon a day later then the last cycle. there is also the fact that i was having acupuncture too. i got pregnant even though my doctor said i would never get pregnant without ivf because my tubes are covered with scars. i miscarried at seven weeks. then my my third cycle my eggs grew to five to six range, when they should be at the nine to ten range. the doctor said the eggs can become resistant to the drugs. that the lupron that he switched me to because i ovulated through the antagon last time might be too strong for me. the fourth cycle we got two really good grade two eggs, but they didn't take. the doctor feels it is not my uterus. now on the this one i had five follicles and only got one egg out of them. i just found out this afternoon it didn't take. all of my eggs have been a grade 2 so it not that i have bad eggs i am just not producing a lot of them. i have not been told that i have POF (premature ovarian failure) by a doctor but in my searches about the many things wrong with my body i found this...http://centerforhumanreprod.com/premature_ovaries.html?gclid=CK-2-Kuc4YcCFR1kUAodAS7JAw while looking up POF.

One of our patients, not too long ago, indeed, taught us a very important new lesson, which we, since, have diligently investigated with an increasing number of our patients. She, without our knowledge, had started taking the over the counter available, mild male hormone, DHEA and, as a consequence, greatly increased her oocyte (egg) yield in IVF. Indeed, after approximately four months of DHEA usage, her 43-year old ovaries behaved like those of woman in her 20ies.

i have a plan. i am now part of the legions of self medicating. this women took 75mg of DHEA and had weekly acupuncture treatments. so for the next four months i am going to be taking 75mg of DHEA and trying to get as many acupuncture treatments as i can afford. i will be following emiaj79 lead and going back on the atkins diet for the next four months as well. it seem to work well for her. ;) plus i need to lose weight. now here's the kicker, i also found this article...http://www.raysahelian.com/dhea.html where this guy says...

I have had numerous reports over the years that a DHEA supplement in high doses causes cardiac arrhythmia or skipped heart beats. Use hormones in low doses and for short periods of time. Take frequent breaks which I call 'hormone holidays.' DO NOT EXCEED MORE THAN 5 MG A DAY on a long term basis. DO NOT TRUST ANYONE - NO MATTER WHAT THEIR CREDENTIALS - WHO SAYS A DHEA SUPPLEMENT IS SAFE IN HIGH DOSES WHEN TAKEN FOR PROLONGED PERIODS. Without a doubt, high doses of DHEA have side effects, sometimes quite serious.

my husband look at both articles and he say that he thinks that this last article is just to sell a low dose DHEA pill instead of the higher doses. where as the other is a real ivf clinic. i have written them and asked to be a part of one there studies, but they have not written back. i plan on telling my RE what i am doing and that if he wants to be apart of it and supervise me then great, but i am going to do it with or without his help. that i think that it could be important to his practice if he is interested. i will try call the other ivf clinic in NY next week to see if they would be interested in letting me be a part of their study. one way or another i will be doing this. i want a child of my own body. i know it this all sounds selfish and crazy but that is the way i feel. i think that if these ladies can do this then i can too. i am just a little nervous about being unsupervised. as soon as i get my period i will start taking the DHEA.

Current Mood: cynical
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